4.25.2006

expression

tu jahaan mai vahaan
(whereever you are, i'm there)
sang sang yun chaloo tere
(i'll walk along side you)
jaise tera aasmaan
(like the sky above you)

some of my friends have been nagging me to post something new. so here i am posting something of debateable significance. i'm not a fan of the blogs where people write about mundane daily activites. snore. i'd rather read a VCR manual. i usally just write my thoughts on whatever seems important at the time. but i have a hard time actually sharing alot of what i write. and especially now due to the pressure of incessant nagging. :) so here is something i wrote a while ago. oddly enough, on the subject of writing itself.

i'm not so pretentious to call myself a "writer" but, as one who writes often, it's funny how you think. i'm not sure if writers experience this, thoughts that are so complex, its a wonder how they are confined to paper. sometimes i get thoughts so complex, i can't even remember them in my head. maybe that is how it is meant to be. great thoughts, while, you cant remember them, nonetheless leave an impact. another irony is how someone, like myself, who is articulate and has a flair for communicating, has the most trouble communicating what i want. not as in, what i want as a possession, or where i want to live, or even my goals for tomorrow. but my real desires. desire is so much more different than want. want gives the implication of not discerning how deep a level that want goes. and it can be quite superficial. but desire has the understanding that they reside somewhere deep inside a person. depths that few can open up, or may even be indiscernible to the person. i have a lock on my thoughts and desires like the club to a steering wheel. i'd like to be able to open up more, but it is such a hard thing to change.

so for now there will be the lucky few who'll be able to reach me on that level. especially the few who nag me to death. :)